Searching for..

All this journey started as simple as the question ‘why?’. Since little children to late existence we live our lives with this question, of course, followed by many constructions which put together are digested by our consciousness.. the result? Stress, frustration, getting pissed off, occasional madness and when the answer comes up – HAPPINESS, PEACE and HARMONY!!! So nice and pure …it is maybe the same feeling like when you are prepared to die.. so simple! I will come with a second point related to asking questions but I feel that I must continue with ‘why’.

In our pursuit of ‘why this or that’ we interact with so many ideas, so much brain work, balancing A and B, trying to learn it, changing with a better modality, finding shortcuts to answers or trying to just make it clear. The journey to finding and understanding ourselves and impliedly the surrounding world takes us like the rollercoasters..up, down, with higher speed, lower speed, heads up, heads down and STOP!! Relax, breath normally, be peaceful…=life. As children we find answers, we ask our parents, teachers, everything is al right. 

We grow and we become more aware of our identity and we want to find our own answers and go on our own path and this is when it makes the adrenaline pump in and make our journey through life a unique feeling.

After getting enough answers for ‘why’ is time for a change.. question ‘how’ and if don’t ask it I recommend to search this path too..there are so many things to understand, it helps us make the connections between the things we know and adventure  in the woods,  fighting all these mysterious feelings we can go through. 

Answering the ‘how’ question might give us some rest, but many times we have other unsolved mysteries.

Now you should be wondering what I have been looking for, why and how J…or reliving feelings from your own experiences and journeys through life. Couple of years ago I would have answered with ‘I don’t know where to, or why that way’.  Actually there might have been a slight clue, but blurry, with the real reason waiting to be discovered. So I may say that I have been looking for me, us, the human kind and balance, alchemy. And it is beautiful but also curious that now I can understand and feel better what the fairy tales from childhood were hiding in their meanings or what the poems and novels in high school aimed to. The discovery of one’s SELF, the discovery of the collective SELF, the discovery of our human nature, our bodies and what work of art we all are!! So simple, so clear, but in the same time we run away from the right answer because we think is too simple and we go on and on to complicate everything and come with all these shapeless behaviours which are like a symphony played by one whom never touched a piano.

I think it is in all of us and we all look inside ourselves and we fight, struggle to change or just hide it away. The simplicity of accepting ourselves and the ones next to us is amazing, though we prefer to go beyond this and jump in a very deep pool where we lose these senses…maybe because the water is too green.  Sometimes we go too far or we don’t explore these areas but we look to figure out how to make more money by using the one next to us instead of helping each other. Then another thought comes..why do people treat me like this or other consequences that struck us afterwards. Action and reaction..